Hello Again

I've been thinking about you lately; thinking how I have abandoned you and how much I used to love talking to you here. (Maybe because I got to do all the talking and you always listened so well).

So I'm back. It was kind of you to wait. I want to say though that I don't get time very often to write but I will as often as I can.

Paul & I are enjoying driving truck together. We have been getting experience on the mountains and building our stamina on the long hauls. This month we did about 19,000 miles which isn't a huge amount but its good work.

The most exiting news is that God is speaking to me about an area of my life that has brought me consistant pain. I can be going through a day, happy when suddenly its there washing over me. Taking away my breath and peace.

I was reading 1 Cor 13 and it was the same as always until I came upon this phrase, "keeps no record of wrong." Me? keeping a record of wrong? The Holy Spirit put his gentle hand on the truth of what was there. Yes, I was keeping a record of wrongs done to me by a varied group of people. But is not that easy to get rid of something you tediously collected and came to treasure. So now I am working on cleaning out my attic. As those memories come back to me I stop the emotional tsunami by repeating and remembering, "keeps no record of wrong." I speak out loud, "I forgive you. Jesus taught me to forgive and gave me the right to forgive by forgiving me."
Little by little, memory by memory the sting of death is being emasculated by the power of forgiveness.
Working on becoming a beautiful old lady, denise